“The work will wait while you show the child the rainbow, but the rainbow won’t wait while you do the work.” -Anonymous
For almost thirty four years, I was separated from my biological family. I considered myself an orphan for a long time until one day in March 2012 our doorbell rang while my husband and I were eating breakfast in Texas. The DHL carrier handed my husband a simple white envelope from my country the Philippines. My husband said, Honey you got mail and he teased me, “This might be from your sister.” I exclaimed and asked him: What? I don’t have a sister! I scrutinized the envelope and opened the letter after breakfast. Yes indeed it was a letter from my long lost sister. She mentioned to me that my mother and sister were waiting for me in the Philippines for a reunion, but our father had passed away five years ago.
I was excited to know that I have sisters and my mother is alive, but my desire to see my mother is very low. I sighed and asked myself, “What is the point?” The beauty of the rainbow is gone. I could only stare at the sky and appreciate the light after the night. As a hardworking mother, I am very busy and don’t have the luxury of time to really spend as much as I would like with my daughter. After I have received the letter from my sister I came into reflection that someday, my little daughter might feel the same way towards me as I felt to my mother, alive, but insignificant. I could not take anything for granted and blame the circumstances for it.
I must change and find way to be a mother and not just work and chores. For a long time now, I am caught into this cul-de-sac that I created. I must solve this maze that I made. It’s not too late. There is a way and I would find it if I decided to. Yes, I can. I am capable of making thing better. The future is in my palm like my destiny. Life is a mystery and we have control over it; we only live once. Make it worthy.
Our work, tasks, errands are there the next day, but the lost time with a child can never be retrieved. I realized now that the more my little one gets bigger, I am getting older myself and before I know it I can never do anything with her anymore because she will become busy with her life as I grow old and weak. What is the use of all of these material things if my daughter considers me a stranger? Things happen in our lives to teach us a lesson and every day is part of that learning process.
I must make the most of every moment with my little one. Every second with her is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I wouldn’t miss it for the world.
I bow and open my arms to all the possibilities for the sake of family. The letter from my sister was the bell that woke me up and I won’t go back to my state of slumber again. I awaken just in time to witness the beauty of dawn and see the horizon’s true colors. It is the start of a happy new day. I am grateful for the life I have yesterday, today and tomorrow.